yet again almost a month has passed since my last blog. and now i am sitting at my computer at 4 in the morning unable to sleep with two teenagers making loadsof noise who also cant sleep. I cant sleep having spent the day drinking alcohol, proper coffee, bouncing on a trampoline and cycling. the proper coffee is importantbecause i have stopped drinking caffeine and therefore am buzzing. the boys are awake because they have been drinking too much red bull. its like living in the twilight zone at the moment and the dog is totally confused.

later today i am going to a friends for a study day - we both have assignments to write so we will be busy, busy, busy.

i am feeling quite smug having not smoked for over a week and during that time have been around smokers so this is good and i feel very positive that i can kick the habit

and i am now a year older - boo hoo. the worst thing about this is i appear to have developed a wrinkle on my forehead - i am so upset by this - i need to do something about it and fast lol

i have finished my scuba qualification - well the pool bit anyway - i just need to do my open water dives now - i fancy turkey if i can ever get hold of my brother

i am also progressing the move - having started the living room - even the ex seems to be quite impressed with the standard of decoration. had a bit of an expensive week - having to buy a new laptop and a new telly - and receiving advice on both from various quarters - although it was nice to have a man help me set up the telly. im not sure i am going to have enough furniture for the new place - it is huge. a 25 x 15 foot kitchen, 3 reception rooms, utility room, downstairs loo and shower, conservatory, 3 bedrooms, double garage, for me and the boy (thats of course if he lives that long)

given all this i have sepnt the last few days pondering - pondering what i have no idea - because i dont seem to have got anywhere with my pondering. in fact all that happens is that i come back to the same conclusion - life is what happens to me while i am making plans- the trouble is it is getting to the point where i cant even remember the plans i am making lol.