well mr on/off has been told its off today for about the 4th time - he wanted to know all about the reason for the finish so i answered his questions .......................he did seem incredulous that he was being dumped for someone who appeared to have less materially ............................ but he understood - i think ..................................... oh well time will tell ................ its really no good having a relationship with someone who at the end of the day is not ever going to see you as a long term prospect ..................however much you like each other

went to stratford today and sorted the boys phone out and then got conned into buying some weights - which then meant me trundling home to get the trolley coz we couldnt carry them ..................... the boy then pushed the trolley but had forgotten his shorts are to big ............. so i had to walk behind pulling his shorts up everytime they fell down ..................... then my flip flops started rubbing between my toes so i removed them and walked barefoot which was precarious as the boy did not seem to be able to control the trolley and i almost lost my toes on at least two occasions lol

well when we got home he got his weights out and i blew up my exercise ball thing which took ages and then we couldnt get the adaptor out so the boy was walkign round the garden with a huge blue ball hanging out of his mouth to stop it going down - it really has been a comedy of errors today.....................

then the vicar, the dear rev woolmer, told me about a policy advisor job advertised in the church times - it looks really interesting so i will apply ........................... mmm and now im thinking is this God or am i just trying to find him ina circumstance

and then there is thursday -so excited - date number 5 - yey

so have had a busy time recently - been out with the IT boys again, but managed to stay sober - still enjoyed the jeiger bombs though.................................... then there has been some visits to some every nice country parks ..................... and the thought of a boating holiday - not sure whether i am up to the locks - think i might follow the lead of the woman we saw in a lock who was just holding on to a rope while the old bloke went round opening and closing gates.................... seems reasonable to me lol

then there is the job thing .............................. thoroughly fed up - got an interview in two weeks so not much longer to wait before finding out i dont have a job lol........................

and then there is the magic cream that is going to give me the most fantastic body ever ........ its already working lol..................................

and what else - oh yeh house now on market so should start getting viewers soon - sooooo exciting ......................... i just cant wait to move .......................... and the boy has got a place at havering college so everything is starting to look good ......................... i haven't been this happy in ages .....................its all good :)

well after a night out saturday with good friends and lots of laughter i had a lovely afternoon in greenwich park and greenwich market although the journey there was a little fraught - on the basis that public transport seemed to be plotting against me and making me late and my friend doesnt have a mobile so there was no way i could tell them i was running late. my friend had to be veered away from all the food - no mean feat i can tell you but we managed. found a lovely coffee shop and then after a couple of hours a nice drive home. trouble is i had forgotten the state my house was in - how embarrassinng - the place looked like a bomb had gone off in it - reminder to self - always, always tidy up before leaving home lol.

yesterday was spent having a makeover and photo shoot. it was great fun although both me and cg couldnt work out who the pics were of - they certainly were not us hahaha. needless to say we did not buy any - especially at the princely sum of £70 each.

i am over cgs today going to the gym and then helping her clean - tomorrow i am going to take my cam to hers and we will have our own photo shoot and a couple of other friends will join us.

the boy is after a new phone and a contract - i had agreed to go today but then remembered that we have tocancel the one he has at the moment - oops there will be a tantrum without a doubt.

and then thursday i am off to gravesend for the late afternoon/evening to meet a friend and do a bit of shopping .............

the wondeful vicar is off in france at the moment so i have to fit in writing a ssermon for sunday at some point .......... now what to do it on mmmmmmmmm

last sunday or worship leader preached and it was really good so i mustn't let the gang down...... we also had our first construction worker from the olympic site join us - he seemed a really nice guy - he had been looking for a church and then read the wonderful rev woolmers article in the times and thought he would troll up to our place. he seemed to enjoy himself and said he would be back even though he was disappointed that kelvin wasnt there.

and hopefully in the afternoon i might get to go out again ..............

and as a final note ................... dating sites are not all bad i have decided :)