well what fun christmas has been ......................... been to the sales twice with the boy (I am going to have to change that soon - he really isnt a boy), he managed to get jeans, ralph lauren rugby shirt, north face jacket and a very nice barbour jumper. I got some really nice perfume which i hope the film producer will like :)

Boxing day found me and CG on an outing to Chelsea Harbour. We agreed to meet at Stratford station but CG was delayed by her granny so I told her to stay on the tube, due to the very long gaps between them, and I would find her - so I jumped on to the first carriage and then at each stop went to the next one -poor CG was getting rather panicky coz she had no idea where to get off. After about four stations I jumped off to be greeted by CG leaning out of a carriage screaming lol. We had a lovely time in Chelsea, but left it a bit late to get the last train - so ended up getting a cab which we wanted to get us to Notting Hill Gate in time for the last tube. Unfortunately despite being very specific about where we wanted to go when the cab appeared the driver had no idea where the station was - end result we arrived in Notting Hill with 2 minutes to go unfortunately still not knowing where the station was. The driver then said he would drop us somewhere - we were not amused because we had no idea where to go. I said I wanted to speak to his controller because as far as I was concerned that they had breached the verbal contract with us on account of they knew where we wanted to go but had not been able to deliver us there. Anyway we became more and more annoyed coz he wouldnt let us talk to them and eventually i think through sheer fear he agreed to drop us at stratford for the same price as the trip from Chelsea to Notting HIll Gate - what a result lol.

Then went to see family yesterday which was lovely and round to see CG in the evening. I think i drank way to much as I have been very confused all day lol.

The only odd thing to happen over christmas has been mr on/offs second declaration of love. This is all a bit odd and a little worrying - oh well who knows what is going through his little mind. I am very happy with film producer - who I should be seeing sometime over the next week - cant wait :)

Tomorrow I am off over to the new place - we are thinking we might take the dog and try and get her used to it before we move. I need to give it a good tidy and clean and then can start moving stuff in. I am now feeling rather daunted by the whole thing - there just seems so much to do ....................... I just dont know if I can manage it on my own - its all a bit scary but hey exciting as well ...................

Well thats all for now - so ttfn - 'such fun'

still no baby - but i have bought it a beautiful snow suit :)

I am so excited by Christmas this year and the new year - yay in fact i just want to dance and dance and dance with the excitement

Happy christmas to one and all

Whoo whoo - i now have a move date - yes the 11th Janaury and I will be all moved. I will also be able to pay off all my bills and still have plenty left over :). So then i can forget the £500 someone owes me - might even get myself a new ring made - or maybe I'll just drop some heavy hints with the new man and see if he would like to get me a ring made lol.

And my nieces baby is due on Friday - I am so excited - cant wait till the baby is born.

All in all life is soooooo sweet :)

Well yet again almost a month - ooops - where does the time go!!!!!

So what is happening in my world - well its all become very amusing indeed. Firstly there appears to be a televsion programme that is about my life - if you've missed it its called Miranda - its a bt unnerving to see someone so like yourself with a life so like yours on the telly - the only thing I am saved from is a mother saying 'such fun' all the time.

On the work front still on gardening leave - so this is leaving me loads of time to get on doing other stuff. I am currently working on three business plans - one is for a film, one is for a film adn sound production studio and the other is for a music school. Its all very exciting. Especially as the one for the film and production studio is for the same guy - who is apparently my guy lol. Who'd have thought i would go out with a film producer/director and composer. HOw very funny ..................... So my life is now spent working through the night trying to get stuff done - I seem to be very busy.

The singing is coming along fine - havent recorded anything yet but am busy drawing up a plan for the new year to identify when and what we need to do .............. going to see another friend in a rock band who has a recordign studio to get some recording done and then start to market the stuff .............. so very exciting there as well.

The house move sadly is not such good news - i have decided i do not like solicitors - they seem to be useless. Its looking more and more like it will be the new year before we move - which is a pain - the boy has his AS levels in January and I really want to move before them. Incidentally we had a lovely report back from his teachers - he is apparently a model pupil. This has left him with a dilemma - a very good school in Dagenham has offered him a place if he wants it - not because of his academic ability but becasue of his rugby ability. However he is not keen and whilst they would be able to give him a much higher standard of education he is also aware that they will be considerably more strict and he knows he will just fight that. So he ahs made the decision to staty at collesge and just work his little socks off. I am very proud of him for making such a grown up decision.

So all in all everything is rosey - now all I need is for the FSA to get their finger out and pay me off then I can pursue my portfolio career. I have decided that I will do this because I can then spend some time doing management consultancy - which pays heaps - massage - which isnt bad and I enjoy it - and the singing stuff - which pays nothing at the moment but who knows .........

So role on 2010 - I'm ready for you :)

So another update- not quite a month this time ........

Well how things can change....................... Iam now the member of a band and apparently a lyricist................................ we are recording stuff over the weekend ............. so by monday there should be some extracts on the myspace site .............. i will put the link onhere when there is somethign to hear

on the man front ........... well very exciting ..... new guy at church who is near my age and quite good looking ..... not sure if he is single or what but it is good to have a laugh with someone around my age .............. and other than that i have stuck to my guns and not done any more dating or even looking .......................... when the tiem is right and all that and anyway i dont have time for all that gettign ready etc..........

house move still on the go ................. hopefully before christmas yay

just an extra thought ............. why do men who are 5'8 think they are 5'11 its because they use the same tape measure to measure their height as they do to measure another part of their anatomy ...................... it can be the only explanatin lol

well what has happened in the last month................ house is still under offer - i have had builders round estimating the cost of replacing all the flooring with floorboards and a new heating system. On the first I am so glad that i didnt spend good money on new carpets etc on the second my heating system works perfectly well so why would you want to replace it ........... hey ho their money.......... oooh and i have the surveyor from their mortgage company coming round on monday ............ as i said to my very good friend last night if hes tall, dark, handsome and built like a brick shit house it will be a very long visit .............. well at least until he can find the key ..............

on the matter of the boy ............. he has a sprained shoulder.............. although a number of his friends have suggested this is due to too much self pleasure he is adamant its a rugby injury ................which of course it is .............. as if my little baby would do those other things............. lol

the job front is interesting inasmuch as i am now on gardening leave and therefore busy job hunting ............... i have applied for a couple and will wait and see.......... the house has never looked so tidy .................... and packing for the move is under way ............................. although i do wish those walls would stop jumping out at me

on the man front ................. well what can i say ............. i have given up .................. after many adventures and fun times i am going to resign from the dating world .................. there are many reasons ........................... firstly its all such a strain trying to work out what to wear.............. then getting ready...................... then actually getting there (I always seem to be late) and then there's the do i dotn i like them question especially when they have exagerrated their height or have said they are a fun loving guy and seem to be the most boring person on the planet .............. well for now i am going on a sabbatical and just hoping the one for me just turns up in my life .......................................... well i can dream cant i :)

so to my forever moaning friend i have done an update ....................:)

ooooooh the excitement - house is now under offer yipee......................................

Oh and i forgot i have two new hobbies - jaw thumping and toe stubbing - i have found that jaw thumping is best done with a glass bottle - you shake it vigorously and smack yourself int he jaw with it - it hurts like hell and toe stubbing requires a shopping trolley with a vendetta against your right foot .......................................

i have been moaned at for not blogging - so here goes for nothing.

well the boy is in college - starts monday - and will be studying, i have to warn you its not easy to stomach, biology, chemistry and maths a level. he is mortified as it seems he has turned into a geek ..................................................... he's not sure when it happened but is having some trouble with the concept..................................

mr on/off is still lurking and funnily i have more contact from him now than i have for ages ................... he has even started going on about children............... he doesnt have any and seemed to be surprised that there was already a mixed race child in my family albeit not the same race as him but mixed race nevertheless lol................................

the newest man on the scene seems to have had a bit of a crisis due to his workload and has suggested a break while his workload his so high ..................... this has been devestating news for me ........................ but having spoken to his mum she seems to think that he doesnt really want the break but just thinks its the best thing at the moment ..................... i really am beginning to think that men are in fact alien life forms who have no idea about how relationships work ................................. but he is happy for me to email so that is what i will do and i can talk to his mum so its not all bad .................................

then there is work ...................... in 5 weeks time i wil be on gardening leave on accoutn of me fucking up my job interview.............................. so i will be at home on full pay job hunting now i have tried to find the down side to this ..................... as yet there appears to be none for me although my team seem to be mightily upset............................

even better it would appear that i have sold the house and so in 6-8 weeks i will be moving hopefully - so gardening leave is perfectly timed.......................................... i am really looking forward to my new place as is th eboy who saw it for the first time last sunday .............................and with the sale of the house will come the new car for me and the new ped for the boy....................................

i am undecided on the vehicle - mr on/off has suggested a vw golf which i do like coz its what streetcar use, although i quite like the citroen c1 ................................. so i will have to have a go with a few ......................... any suggestions gratefully received ..................................

well mr on/off has been told its off today for about the 4th time - he wanted to know all about the reason for the finish so i answered his questions .......................he did seem incredulous that he was being dumped for someone who appeared to have less materially ............................ but he understood - i think ..................................... oh well time will tell ................ its really no good having a relationship with someone who at the end of the day is not ever going to see you as a long term prospect ..................however much you like each other

went to stratford today and sorted the boys phone out and then got conned into buying some weights - which then meant me trundling home to get the trolley coz we couldnt carry them ..................... the boy then pushed the trolley but had forgotten his shorts are to big ............. so i had to walk behind pulling his shorts up everytime they fell down ..................... then my flip flops started rubbing between my toes so i removed them and walked barefoot which was precarious as the boy did not seem to be able to control the trolley and i almost lost my toes on at least two occasions lol

well when we got home he got his weights out and i blew up my exercise ball thing which took ages and then we couldnt get the adaptor out so the boy was walkign round the garden with a huge blue ball hanging out of his mouth to stop it going down - it really has been a comedy of errors today.....................

then the vicar, the dear rev woolmer, told me about a policy advisor job advertised in the church times - it looks really interesting so i will apply ........................... mmm and now im thinking is this God or am i just trying to find him ina circumstance

and then there is thursday -so excited - date number 5 - yey

so have had a busy time recently - been out with the IT boys again, but managed to stay sober - still enjoyed the jeiger bombs though.................................... then there has been some visits to some every nice country parks ..................... and the thought of a boating holiday - not sure whether i am up to the locks - think i might follow the lead of the woman we saw in a lock who was just holding on to a rope while the old bloke went round opening and closing gates.................... seems reasonable to me lol

then there is the job thing .............................. thoroughly fed up - got an interview in two weeks so not much longer to wait before finding out i dont have a job lol........................

and then there is the magic cream that is going to give me the most fantastic body ever ........ its already working lol..................................

and what else - oh yeh house now on market so should start getting viewers soon - sooooo exciting ......................... i just cant wait to move .......................... and the boy has got a place at havering college so everything is starting to look good ......................... i haven't been this happy in ages .....................its all good :)

well after a night out saturday with good friends and lots of laughter i had a lovely afternoon in greenwich park and greenwich market although the journey there was a little fraught - on the basis that public transport seemed to be plotting against me and making me late and my friend doesnt have a mobile so there was no way i could tell them i was running late. my friend had to be veered away from all the food - no mean feat i can tell you but we managed. found a lovely coffee shop and then after a couple of hours a nice drive home. trouble is i had forgotten the state my house was in - how embarrassinng - the place looked like a bomb had gone off in it - reminder to self - always, always tidy up before leaving home lol.

yesterday was spent having a makeover and photo shoot. it was great fun although both me and cg couldnt work out who the pics were of - they certainly were not us hahaha. needless to say we did not buy any - especially at the princely sum of £70 each.

i am over cgs today going to the gym and then helping her clean - tomorrow i am going to take my cam to hers and we will have our own photo shoot and a couple of other friends will join us.

the boy is after a new phone and a contract - i had agreed to go today but then remembered that we have tocancel the one he has at the moment - oops there will be a tantrum without a doubt.

and then thursday i am off to gravesend for the late afternoon/evening to meet a friend and do a bit of shopping .............

the wondeful vicar is off in france at the moment so i have to fit in writing a ssermon for sunday at some point .......... now what to do it on mmmmmmmmm

last sunday or worship leader preached and it was really good so i mustn't let the gang down...... we also had our first construction worker from the olympic site join us - he seemed a really nice guy - he had been looking for a church and then read the wonderful rev woolmers article in the times and thought he would troll up to our place. he seemed to enjoy himself and said he would be back even though he was disappointed that kelvin wasnt there.

and hopefully in the afternoon i might get to go out again ..............

and as a final note ................... dating sites are not all bad i have decided :)

whilst in the pub at lunchtime having dinner and a nice coke - i remembered that i promised to cook a roast dinner for one of the lads - my only hope is that he doesnt remember it lol or the breakfast promise - oh dear drink is a demon

well it comes to something when your son rings you and asks if you have a hangover and then says you came home in a terrible state........ oh well i will remind him next time he comes home and throws himself on my bed and tells me how much he loves me lol

we went along to look at the canoeing - we will be joining the club - £30 for membership and £5 a session seems very reasonable. and next week i am dragging cg off to the gym to get her back in the swing of it. she will love it haha

as for the rest of life - a funny thing happened on facebook today which i will watch with interest - was the comment directed at me or not only time will tell lol

so last night found going for a quick drink with the IT boys before going round cgs. mmmmm well the quick one turned into 3 or so pints, a vodka and coke (even though i had asked for a coke) and 3 shots one of which was tequila and the other two had some weird name but involved red bull. needless to say i staggered home and then after spending a few minutes with my head down the toilet i passed out on my bed. i woke about 1ish, had cold beans and toast and a coffee and then went back to bed. i a feeling very shaky this morning and am contempleting the idea of spending the morning on the water.

i am meant to be going out with them again on wednesday - methinks that will involve just one glass of whatever and me drinking very slowly. i had forgotten how easy it is to get plastered when going out for a quickie after work. but they are a good laugh..........

so back to the water thing - me and cg are going to a come along and try session at fairlop at least we are meant to be - i see no sign of cg online as yet - do hope she hasnt overslept lol.

the rest of the weekend will be spent i think with me recovering my wits and trying to stop this shaking of my hands. i really must learn to drink in moderation lol

so how complicated can life get - how much fun is one person entitled to - is there a limit. i dont think there is. i wrote to the school on monday and spoke to the head on tuesday. he is willing to give the boy a reference but not let him back to the school. oh well the hunt for a new college place goes on.

this week has been a funny one on the whole - people who havent spoken to me for ages have been popping out of the woodwork and chatting like there had been no gap between now and the last conversation. it is all very strange.

then there are my new mates in work - the IT gang who are all very chatty now - again very funy - i have been sitting near them for over six months and now they start talking ot me like i am now an old mate.

i think that on the whole the world is a funny place - or perhaps its just me that is a strange person in a very normal world - who knows.

on off man is as always on and off - and who knows where that will go or if indeed it will go anywhere. oh well life is for living and adventures are always worth having !!!

i have now calmed down - went to the gym and took the errant child with me - apparently any year 11 child who turned up at the sports day and was meant to be going to year 12 has lost their place. who gave that school the right to be judge and jury without any evidence ............

and i found out that i can run at 12kph - will have to try faster speeds next week lol

i am so angry - my child had mucked up big time. he decided to go along and watch the planned muck up day this week and has now lost his place at sixth form - in addition he wont answer his phone to me or txts. he really is underestimating his mother big time......................

well after last nights escapades the IT guys spent the day winding me up about my new suitor. i pointed out to them i did not think it was very chivalrous of them to abandon me to him. they thought this was hysterical. got my own back though - they had a lovely touch feely workshop and when they returned all strung out coz they dont like all this sort of stuff i said i was going to suggest to their top boss that they all have a group hug every morning - they were not amused. although a couple of them caught on quick and took it onto doing exercise by their desks every morning as a group - i cant wait to see it .

i was agian at the gym at 6.30 - i think i have been bitten by the gym bug. ive decided its great

Well the assessment centre was as bad as predicted - dont get feedback for 4 weeks so i will have to wait to see whether i managed to convince them that i am any good

went for a drink after work last night and ended up with te IT guys who are desperate for me to be their line manager - i have tried to tell them it is highly unlikely on account of me not being an it professional but i will know whether i have got through to the next stage on tuesday. they then abandoned me to some drunk stranger who was convinced that he was coming home with me - i told him in no uncertain terms to go home to his wife and two kids. he then tried following me to the train station and i threatened him with the police and pushed him which resulted in him staggering into the road. i do hope he got home ok although i hope that i never see him again another example of a prize wanker lol

right so today - did the treadmill again but didnt up the speed no staggering today..... I am quite liking the gym and cant wait till tomorrow. Although i did face a challenge with the locker. all the lockers look the same and are locked using your membership card - however there are two key things to this - one you have to lock the locker and two you have to remember the number. I failed on both counts lol. so having spent 10 minutes trying to unlock the wrong locker and pestering the guy at reception i realised my locker was in fact the one next door and was unlocked............ will try better tomorrow.

then there was the conference which i was meant to be at all day but had to leave at lunch coz i had to write a paper for the management board next week. why do they bring forward meetings a week and a half and then expect you to deliver as if nothing had changed.

tomorrow is my assessment centre for a new job. i am sooo looking forward it ........ can think of nothing better than being interrogated for 5 hours so that i can be told whether i am a good manager or not............ i have an awful feeling the answer will be not a good manager.

a funny thing happened in work today - but unfortunately i am not at liberty to say what - i ca say that it involves winding up another member of staff and that seems to be working admirably lol

tomorrow is a leavign do and the wind up will continue there - so should be fun and it will be good to have a drink with the rest of the gang - thats if they all go and there is another one next week....

and now i am feeling a little tired so think i will go off to bed

i forgot to add that yesterday i went to the gym - first time in god knows how many years. well they did this health assessment - which was fine till they measured my height. now i am old but i didnt think i was old enough to have shrunk lol. i was shocked when the guy said to me i was only 5'9 and a half . what has happend to the other inch and a half. where has it gone. when did it go. i am distraught. if anyone finds it can they let me know......................

this mornign i was up at 6 and in the gym at 6.30 - i had no trouble with the bike and rowing machine unfortunately the treadmill was another story. i started slow and built up the speed but then made a grave error and tried to speed it up to 10 kph at which point there was a bit of staggering and arm waving and i only just managed to stay on the bloody thing. This has not enamoured me of the treadmill especially as i have been known to fall off them before - i will have to try again tomorrow and see if i can have a little more success - it cant be that difficult surely...........

right so a friend of mine asked whether i was going to do a bog update - i think he meant blog - but a bog update sounds so much more fun.

so my bog update - well i have been to the loo a few times today and in fact i did go to a meeting today in a very smelly office that had the most peculiar toilets. the doors of the toilets were sme bifold affair that you had to manipulate to get to close and then even more manipulation to open . Bloody difficult when you are in a rush lol and the other thing was they were red and blue - a very unusual colour scheme for a toilet. i can still smell the building it was disgusting. i cant believe there are still government offices like that

so we went to the wanstead music in the park and it was quite a good evening. although my wonderful mate thought she would set me up with someone she new - sadly this is not to be. she is quite upset - even more upset that i wouldnt even consider him for a one night stand lol. i had to explain to her several times that there were a number of reasons

1. i didnt think i would be able to carry on a conversation with him for more than about 10 minutes

2. he wasn't really my type in looks

3. he wasnt my type in build (i have always insisted on my men being over 6 foot but have now realised that height isnt everything - but conversation and laughter is)

4. he dotes on his young son and if i am perfectly honest i'm not sure that i want to go out with a man whose only topic of conversation appears to be his son.

so poor cg will have to continue her search for eligible bachelors for me lol. or then again perhaps not

so last night found myself in Sway - hey what a night!!! loads of really good 80s music interspersed with some 70s - i personally think my real peak was dont stop me now - lol but if those pics appear on facebook then i will personally have to murder the taker of said pics!!!! although if they are any good i might put them on here lol

a great girlies night out and one to be repeated me thinks. the running is not gonna happen seeing as it puts my back out each time - so will have to walk the 5K - oh well never mind

I have done the dreaded deed and joined the gym in an effort to sort my back out so that i can run - coz despite what i have always thought i quite enjoy running. and it goes nicely with the cycling and swimming - you never know i might even enter a mini triathlon pmsl.

this weekend is as always full with a meeting this morning and then off to see a mates kid play in a steel band this evening - the things i do for my adopted nieces and nephew lol. oh and i dont think i mentioned it before - i am going to be a great aunt again - my oldest niece is expecting a baby around christmas - so excited. more baby sitting - absolutely fantastic :)

the house now looks really nice and i am just waiting to sort out the final details before it goes on the market.

i have decided the instant messenger in work is a bad thing lol

well the house is decorated and clean and tidy - now just got to wait for the valuer tomorrow. whoopee.

can't believe that this time last week i was at glastonbury - it seems such a long time ago. can't wait for next year. in the meantime have a couple of holidays to arrange - have agreed to go to new york with the boy for a shopping trip in october half term. it will help to make up for the lack of holiday last year.

have got to get back to my running - the 5km is in two weeks and i need to be fit for that. tomorrow night should be down the rugby club for a soul evening - should be fun. then sunday i will have to tidy the garden and get that ready for the photos on wednesday. my life sounds so boring lol, but i spend most of it laughing so it can't be that bad.

have to finish my diploma over the next couple of weeks as i start my masters in october. thats of course if i am still employed then - thats the other thing i have to do on sunday - fill in application forms for my job and a couple of other jobs. oh well life can't all be parties..................

other equally good acts were lily allen, noah and the whale, emmy the great. i would also say that the atmosphere at glastonbury this year was just brilliant - really friendly and a real feel of pulling together. the toilets leave something to be deisired but with the discover of the she pee even that became less of an issue. we visited places we didnt go last year - the peacefields, the stone circle - met a lovely guy called tim there - and the dance tents.

next year though we are travelling lighter and not taking food - just a drop or two of alcohol. and of course there will be a couple of teenage boys in tow - but im sure we will cope and i suspect i will only see them when money is required. of course the extra two means that we will not be travelling in daisy and i will have to buy a car, which i was going to do anyway when i move.

had an interesting experience tonight - being followed by a bloke who wanted to ask me out and then started shaking like a leaf when i said he could have my number - i suspect i will not hear from him again.

having the house valued on saturday so have t finish all the decorating by then and someone coming to take the pics on wednesday so need to have a good clean and tidy. it is all becoming so real and although i will be happy to move out it will be a shame to leave my neighbours who have on the whole been lovely.

i am so happy with life at the moment - i am free to do what i want when i want to do it and get to spend time on my own in the peace and quiet of my house. life is sooo good - i have wonderful friends - male and female. talking of which why is it that some men just cant form a friendship after having been intimate - it is such a shame - i have made some really good friends with blokes i have dated and then there are others who just seem to be incapable of doing that except of course when they live in the hope that the woman will fall back into their arms. strange what love will do and sad really that soemtimes people just cant get over a relationship - my philosophy - enjoy the relationship and when it ends as a romantic endeavour be honest about why and then wherever possible stay friends..........................

so what can i say but what an awesome weekend. so much to see and do and so little time to see and do it.

who did i see well the list goes on and on but highlights would include the boss, tom jones, rolph harris, blur, white lies, the specials and madness. I didnt manage to get to see pendulum, calvin harris or the prodigy but hey you cant see everything.

Between us me and cg managed to lose van and house keys, one hat, a bracelet, sunglasses, and a number of other things. Fortunately we managed to get a spare van key to the site so that we could get home. although i did find out that i have two lots of car breakdown cover even though i dont have a car!!!

Overall it was absolutely brilliant the weather was great apart from a bit of rain on friday morning and yet again i have come back with a cracking tan. needless to say we are registered for next year. I also managed to replace a rather expensive ring that had been hand made for me and which some wanker decided to keep rather than return when he finished our relationship. So I now have a new ring which is rather lovely and compliments a beautiful necklace (quite by coincidence) that has been bought for me. well back to the real world...........

So poor Jenson - didnt manage a british win - but he stillleads the championship - hopefully he will up his game for the next one.



Decorating going well - living room almost finished - just the ceiling and the window to do. then there is the kitchen and its finished. hopelly have a valuer in a couple of weeks and then the selling can begin.



other jobs today - packing for glastonbury. there seems to be a lot less in my rucksack this year - probably coz its just skirts and shorts no trousers. my new slim me will look good yey! i am soooo looking forward to it.



my lovelife is sadly lacking - i have just read a book called 50 ways to find a lover - its about a woman who starts a blog to record her attempts to find a man and what do you know the one she ends up with is the one that was under her nose all the time. sadly i do not have a male flatmate so i dont think that will be the ending for me. but it did get me to thinking about all the attempts i have made to find a man - the dating site on facebook - which i have deleted coz there seemed to be too many weirdos - the other datign site i joined whihc i have now left, again because it seemed to have more than its fair share of weirdos. what i will say is that i have made a number of really good friends and on the whole have found the experience enlightening and fun. but i think i am now going to let fate take its course and just sit back and let her work. of course i am ever hopeful that i will meet the love of my life at glasto lol!



well i guess its back to the packing and the decorating and the cleaning .............................

oooh i forgot to mention - wil be having the house valued in the next week so the move is underway - i cannt believe how lucky i am to be moving to such a large house and literally yards away from a fire station - absolutely marvellous - cant wait for the house warming party - maybe i should invite the on duty watch - now there's a thought :)

well only 7 days and we will be off to glasto - the line- up is just fantastic. i cant wait - i hope glastonbury is ready for us. last year me and the cg were somewhat reserved on account of being in relationships, however this year there are no such restraints so lets see if we can find some fun. she has bought a lovely kingsize sleeping bag which is blue - while i have gone for a lovely pink bag - it is sooo warm. talking of which at the moment the forecast is for sun sun sun while we are there which will be fantastic - last year we managed to get tans and it would be good if the same were to be true this year. so music, sun and fun - what more could a girl want!!!!!

oh dear - 6 weeks since last blog - anyway what has happened - well I have to apply for my job again - although I can apply for two other jobs both of which are promotion- so that will be exciting.

off sick at the moment with exhaustion and stress - doc thinks its coz i am doing to much. the decorating is almost finished and the house will go on the market soon. iwent to see the new place it is great and just the sort of house i will love to live in.

on top of the exhaustion i have hurt my back which not only means i have missed a day of decorating - i am also in agony lol.

and best of all only 2 1/2 weeks to glastonbury - ooooh so excited.

yet again almost a month has passed since my last blog. and now i am sitting at my computer at 4 in the morning unable to sleep with two teenagers making loadsof noise who also cant sleep. I cant sleep having spent the day drinking alcohol, proper coffee, bouncing on a trampoline and cycling. the proper coffee is importantbecause i have stopped drinking caffeine and therefore am buzzing. the boys are awake because they have been drinking too much red bull. its like living in the twilight zone at the moment and the dog is totally confused.

later today i am going to a friends for a study day - we both have assignments to write so we will be busy, busy, busy.

i am feeling quite smug having not smoked for over a week and during that time have been around smokers so this is good and i feel very positive that i can kick the habit

and i am now a year older - boo hoo. the worst thing about this is i appear to have developed a wrinkle on my forehead - i am so upset by this - i need to do something about it and fast lol

i have finished my scuba qualification - well the pool bit anyway - i just need to do my open water dives now - i fancy turkey if i can ever get hold of my brother

i am also progressing the move - having started the living room - even the ex seems to be quite impressed with the standard of decoration. had a bit of an expensive week - having to buy a new laptop and a new telly - and receiving advice on both from various quarters - although it was nice to have a man help me set up the telly. im not sure i am going to have enough furniture for the new place - it is huge. a 25 x 15 foot kitchen, 3 reception rooms, utility room, downstairs loo and shower, conservatory, 3 bedrooms, double garage, for me and the boy (thats of course if he lives that long)

given all this i have sepnt the last few days pondering - pondering what i have no idea - because i dont seem to have got anywhere with my pondering. in fact all that happens is that i come back to the same conclusion - life is what happens to me while i am making plans- the trouble is it is getting to the point where i cant even remember the plans i am making lol.

well i think i may have spoken too soon about the diving. during a skill last night i managed to breath rather a large amount of water, compounded the problem by forgetting to put the regulator back in my mouth and ended up surfacing (forgetting to inflate my jacket) and then immediately plummeting to the bottom again only to be dragged up by the instructor lol. who then proceeded to point out that all i needed to do was to put my regulator back in my mouth and then helpfully further pointing out that - that people drowned because they didnt breath off the regulator. haha. oh well hopefully the water will drain away soon.

the rest of the evening was brilliant as always and we all thoroughly enjoyed ourselves although the other girl on the course said i frightened the shit out of her - oh well next week i will have to be more careful otherwise the instructor will think i am a complete idiot.

had a break from decorating this weekend and had a pamper instead which was lovely and left me looking even more beautiful than ever lol. new relationship continues - i think it will be the summer before we meet again - because we are so so busy.

next weekend is cgs birthday so we will be out celebrating and enjoying ourselves. watch out wanstead and chingford lol

where has the time gone - almost a month since my last blog. well my bedroom is finished and looks fantastic - i might put some pics up when i get some decent ones. The boys room is also finished and looking fab. I have a new love interest whihc is nice - he is such a gent and we are taking things slowly - so slowly in fact that it took us 6weeks to meet. Still we had a nice time and hopefully there will be more meetings to come once he has got his surfing weekends out of the way.

On the diving front - it is absolutely brilliant - I a really enjoying the course and so far have managed to do everything that we have been asked to do. The other two on the course are finishing it in stoney cove and i have to say i am tempted to finish it with them - will have to see - a lot depends on whether i ever get a response from my brother about turkey

work is still busy - i have almost finished my diploma and then there will be a short break before i start my masters.

i managed ot set the kitchen on fire the other night - no major damage but it added excitement to the evening.

The decorating is coming along nicely and the new bedroom furniture is ordered. I really must clear my bed off if I am going to stand on it to decorate - almost fell off and broke my neck.

Last night was my try dive and oh my god - it was so brilliant. all the technical stuff was ok but swimming under the water was just fantastic - I really cant begin how to describe how liberating it was. Just swimming round was just so great - I have signed up for the course and will finish it in egypt or turkey - i now have two diving buddies - possibly a third......

life is just absolutely great at the moment....... it is so great being alive and being me

Well the week was busy - as they all are recently - can't wait for next week when at least i don't have to get up to an alarm. Thursday found me up at 4:30, in a cab at 5:45 and flying to belfast at 7:45. Dinner at 4 in Belfast and then back on plane to Leeds Bradford in the evening , being held over the airport because there was rather a lot of the white fluffy stuff and they didn't know if we could land - finally we did. Thena cab journey from Leeds to York, during which me and my team were almost killed, but we finally arrived in York at about 9 - wine and nibbles in my room and then a journey back from York friday evening. It seemed like we had been away ages.

Yesterday was spent mostlyin bed and then Lakeside. - I love Primark.

And today I have been sorting my room out for decorating - the first room and now that I am started the move seems all the more real

As for the love life well my vicar is intent on setting me up with someone and has found a nice chaplain for me. He is the Chaplain at a private school, single, my age and apparently enjoys a good pint - honestly I love my vicar to bits but really...............................

what a bizarre weekend!!

firslty there was the phone call from someone i met on facebook last august - we were playing poker and got chatting. he is a film producer (horror films) and although we tried to meet a couple of times it never quite happened. anyway we had a chat and it seems he is up in london later on this month and suggested we meet up.

then there was the ice skating - oh dear what a mistake. really you should go more than once every 24 years. i ended up flat on my back and with whiplash - it is still painful.

work is busy busy busy - i am very deserving of the pay rise that i am due to get at the end of this month. i am also becoming more confident about a new love interest - although i always am and they seem to dissolve into nothing - oh well lets wait and see.

so i missed the parents evening because i couldn't face the teachers wittering on about my son and his wasting of his ability. i went to my friends birthday bash and the guy she was trying to set me up with was soooooo boring i only managed to talk to him for 5 minutes. there was light relief provided in the form of a guy i had a bit of a fling with who thought i should go back to his - i politely declined. we had a laugh and he did manage to get snog out of me so he was reasonably happy.

then thursday we were off to cardiff which was interesting. out for dinner in the evening and a cardiff work colleague and one of his friends came along. the evening ended with both of them wanting to shag me - haha - what are men like, although it was a bit of a shock to find out that someone i had admired from a distance wanted to have a shag. although the friend is very wealthy so you never know, but i think cardiff is a bit far for a relationship. hasnt stopped him texting me ever since.

belfast was cancelled due to snow. but work is growing exponentially and yet again i am working in the evening and probably over the weekend. next week we go to belfast thursday and york friday i think i will avoid dinners with colleagues and their friends.

but two good things have happened this week - firstly the boy has decided he wants to be a marine biologist or a zoologist. and the second thing is - i have my ticket to glastonbury booked - yay. iam so excited. i cant believe i am going again. it is sooooooooo exciting.

tomorrow back to the swimming - preparing for my scuba course - something else that is so exciting - my life is so on the up at the moment - mmm where is the catch!!!!

so the mad dash world that i am living in has not slowed down. the workshops in aberdeen were very good as was the one on thursday. the management awayday also went well and despite my concerns about having to each my lunch on my own they all seemed to still to be talking to me by the end of the day. amazing considering i was talking about restructuring.

this weekend i am working again - its the only way i can keep up and i am really annoyed because i overslept and missed the fitness swim session. the try dive is booked and i am really looking forward to it.

we get our payrise at the end of fed and i have to say mine appears to be too good to be true, but i need it so that i can the place fit for selling and then move - best news is i have found a 3 bed end of terrace to move to - its rented but that suits at the moment. it is a huge house and it will be nice to have a fire station just down the road lol.

next week is busy again although not quite so bad as this. parents evening on tuesday (really not looking forward to that) and then off to cardiff on thursday afternoon. i am out drinking on tuesday and off to york for the day on wednesday. that is not a good combination methinks. i have a friend who is determined to set me up with someone - so she has invited a mate of hers along tuesday.

its the boys birthday tomorrow - he has personalised trainers a ralph lauren hoody and another superdry jacket. but lucky him he is playing rugby tomorrow against basildon - it is the quarterfinal of the essex cup - so i hope they win although the last time the two teams played there was an altercation. hey ho lets hope they win.

the weekend was fantastic and just what i needed. we had a great time taking his daughter swimming - the first time for her - and then there was sitting in and eating pizza, drinking lager and watching ironman. sunday found us walkng the dog - with me being pushed around on ice and falling off a rope swing. again the laughter did not stop and i had a great time.

work is so busy i feel that i am not achieving anything and next week i am off to aberdeen monday. back tuesday, off to taplow wednesday, workshops to run thursday and thank god working at home on friday.

Well a fantastic holiday. Despite assurances that friend in Dubai wouldn't be in touch I received a call on Christmas Day and then texts every day thereafter. Not sure where that friendship is going although that is not uncommon for me. As proved by the new friend I met for the first time on Boxing Day. A work colleague is a mutual friend and advised me that he had a free place for Egypt. I did not, in the end go, although had I realised I could have done my PADI while out there it might have been a different story. While he has been away we have emailed, txted and spoken every day - so where is this friendship going - see i have no idea with relationships.

Anyway I spent Christmas and New Year charging round from one social event to another, no time to think at all. And I have agreed to join a diving club with my brother, take my PADI or BASC and then go to Turkey diving in the summer - Egypt man wants to come as well. Haha.

So other than that my MSc has been put on hold till September (not enough applicants) cant say I am sorry gives me a bit of time to sort other things out - like moving. Apparently the ex is happy about selling up - so that is good news. I have worked out it will cost between 1500 and 2000 to do all the work./

New Years eve I managed to lose the front door key so New Years Day found me changing locks - which I say I managed very well. A new kitchen and bathroom should be a doddle.

I have started the New Year having given up smoking, lost more weight, swimming twice a week and using the resident rowing machine every day. The boy has also agreed to help me with his GCSE PE toning course he has developed. I am feeling quite thin at the moment and even managed to get into a size 10 t-shirt (although as CG pointed it out - it is quite stretchy). Carry on like this and by the time I go to Turkey I should be looking good.

This weekend I have a trip to visit a friend which should be great fun - the last time we met up there was laughter all day - so I am looking forward to it.