So today I was back at work after two weeks away. Its always a struggle to go back and I'm not really sure why. Before I leave I know I have to go back so why is it I face the first day back with such loathing. I really wish I was in a position to be able to work for myself - now I know that is twice as hard but at least you are in charge of your own destiny. One of the things I really hate is that I have to do things that other people tell me. I do have quite a bit of autonomy and I am able to to do things like work at home and take leave when I want. Anyway back I went and to be honest I had quite a successful day. I managed to write the paper that was begging to be written and I also managed to attend four meetings - so not a bad day.

Now on to tomorrow. I have to go on a course which I am not looking forward to. Much of the course I have done before and I just think I will probably learn very little, but everyone has to do it so off to Sunningdale I will go tomorrow morning. And I will not return until Wednesday evening. And to cap it all there appears to be evening work. It really takes the biscuit and dinner isn't till 8pm. That is much too late for me so by the time dinner arrives I will either be asleep or pissed. I hope its asleep because if its pissed then I will have spent money I cannot afford and really don't want to waste on alcohol.

Tonight I have laid on my bed with the boy and watched Spirited Away. For those who don't know this is a Manga Cartoon by Miyazaki. I own two DVDs of this nature and am considering buying some more - I normally rent them. I really love these films and to be honest I don't know why. So we laid there and watched the film a scene of family idyll. I love times like this - partly I think because I know that in a few years time he will be off and living on his own and not wanting to sit and watch films with his mum. I'm not sure what I will do with myself then - guess I will have to find someone else to lay on the bed with and watch films.