well mr on/off has been told its off today for about the 4th time - he wanted to know all about the reason for the finish so i answered his questions .......................he did seem incredulous that he was being dumped for someone who appeared to have less materially ............................ but he understood - i think ..................................... oh well time will tell ................ its really no good having a relationship with someone who at the end of the day is not ever going to see you as a long term prospect ..................however much you like each other

went to stratford today and sorted the boys phone out and then got conned into buying some weights - which then meant me trundling home to get the trolley coz we couldnt carry them ..................... the boy then pushed the trolley but had forgotten his shorts are to big ............. so i had to walk behind pulling his shorts up everytime they fell down ..................... then my flip flops started rubbing between my toes so i removed them and walked barefoot which was precarious as the boy did not seem to be able to control the trolley and i almost lost my toes on at least two occasions lol

well when we got home he got his weights out and i blew up my exercise ball thing which took ages and then we couldnt get the adaptor out so the boy was walkign round the garden with a huge blue ball hanging out of his mouth to stop it going down - it really has been a comedy of errors today.....................

then the vicar, the dear rev woolmer, told me about a policy advisor job advertised in the church times - it looks really interesting so i will apply ........................... mmm and now im thinking is this God or am i just trying to find him ina circumstance

and then there is thursday -so excited - date number 5 - yey